The recent talk series at our church has taken my thoughts back to the book of Numbers with the Israelites wandering in the wilderness and the land of Canaan promised to them. I find myself in awe as the story unfolds in Chapter 13 when Moses, as directed by the Lord, sent twelve men to spy on the land of Canaan. These were not just ordinary men, nor were they chosen at random but each a leader representing the twelve ancestral tribes of Israel. The men went out to see what the land was like as instructed by Moses and were gone for 40 days. Upon their return they stood before Moses, Aaron and the whole community to report what they saw and the fruit the land bore. They did testify to the truth that it was indeed a land flowing with milk and honey, bountiful and bore much fruit…….BUT the people were too powerful, their towns large and fortified and there were giants in the midst.
Source: Of God or Man?
This summer is quickly coming to a close and the reality that time flies by is an understatement. My eldest children are in their third and second years of high school; while my youngest is starting middle school. This definitely causes anxiousness in my heart as my husband and I begin contemplating what we will do as they begin to leave home and pursue the path before them. As we prepare out hearts for what the future has in store, we can’t help but wonder: What will their path reveal about them? Will it be as we envision for them?
Sometimes life unfolds to a series of circumstances holding you captive in fear, lack of hope, not to mention insecurity as we compare ourselves to others. This sometimes causes us to question the very fabric of our being based upon a failure, harsh critique, or even the lack of confidence in self when we look over the size of a task the Lord has given us.
I love when God tells Joshua in Joshua 7:10, “Get up! Why are you lying on your face like this.” after his army was defeated in battle by the men of Ai. Joshua was scared of the outcome he envisioned for the remaining Israelites and questioned God on why he would lead them to be defeated.
I don’t know about you, but I have been there and done that multiple times even recently. I’ve sat bemoaning and crying over injustices, taking my place on the pot of pity. Why Me? Why now? Why did you lead me this far only to be laughed at and made a fool?
I love when the Lord says to Joshua in verse 13, “You will never defeat your enemies until you remove these things from among you.” While the Lord is speaking of items that were plundered and hidden by fellow Israelites that should not have been, I find great comfort in His words.
In everything we do, we will experience a set back of some sort. While it’s easy to climb and sit upon the mountain of self pity and cry over injustices done to us; maybe, just maybe, the Lord is cleansing things from our hearts that shouldn’t be there or are hidden and instead lining them up with His path set for us?
My enemies are not people but the battles that rage within my very heart. I can’t use a set-back as a will and a way to give up but rather embrace it; knowing that I am but clay in His hands. He is refining me and removing impurities within so that I can get up, dust off the dirt and step into the next phase He has planned for me.
We have reached a new milestone with our eldest teen entering the restricted freedom of driving! My heart still palpitates as this new era has caused great anxiousness within me. I’m sure all parents can testify to that! We have encountered some bumps and jolts with our expectations versus the perception of our newest family driver. There is one in particular I want to share.
This post was written on Inspired Moms Club by Cindy and we wanted to share with you!
I am guilty
Ashamed of what I’ve done, what I’ve become
These hands are dirty
I dare not lift them up to the Holy one
In life, the words above from Lauren Daigle’s song “How Can it Be” are a constant reality as we go throughout our days. We see and know all to well our shortfalls, our sin, and we hold on to false truths of unworthiness. We want to carry our weight and our burdens as a constant reminder of who we are opposite of Christ and we can’t comprehend the true meaning of the cross. Knowing we are not good enough before God, we refuse to approach Him in prayer and worship believing He wouldn’t give us the time of day. I too am guilty of this but I am learning in Christ I can’t be bound!